There is much pain within me tonite – remembering my animals & their passings –Sable is with me, my almost constant companion since Ebony died. And now I receive news that Mama is fading – sadness, guilt mixing in
– need for my heart’s companions for so long – though I know Rick loves me so, it is my treasured animals that can only heal my heart. They alone awaken my tears, my fears, my eternal love.So many losses in recent years, the last year so hard – I cared for Lady, Cayce, Ebony, yet in the end I could not save them – sometimes I wonder can I really save myself. So much is broken from my life, I feel that there isn’t enough super glue in the world to mend it.